We’re fools whether we dance or not, so we might as well dance.
//Japanese Proverb
There are a lot of ways that her little sister is different now. And most of the differences aren’t good or bad – they just simply are.
But one thing she does notice that bothers her is that her little sister never dances any more. And it’s not even that her sister was the best dancer or that it was some sort of great ambition of hers, but it’s just that she had so much fun doing it. She was always the first one on the dance floor at weddings, at birthday parties, at clubs, and seedy bars. Hell, she didn’t even need a dance floor a lot of the time. She fondly remembers (fondly now, of course; at the time it had been highly annoying) being dragged out of her bedroom after going to battle with her obstinate senior thesis and being forced to take a dance break.
“C’mooooon!” Lydia would cry, flailing her 20 year old body around wildly to some godawful dance remix. “This is good for you! Loosens up the body, gets the blood flowing!”
Of course she would roll her eyes, but her sister would continue on, undeterred, until finally it was the two of them sliding down the hall, waving their arms, singing loudly to a Taylor Swift dance remix.
But now she sits at the lavishly though tastefully decorated table and watches her now 22 year old sister smile and shake her head when their cousins plead with her to come out and dance with them. She realizes with a start that she hasn’t seen Lydia dance at any of the three weddings they’ve attended in the past year. She had noticed before then that her sister no longer danced at bars or clubs, but since she’d never been a fan of those places either way, had chalked it up to her baby sister just growing out of the bar scene.
Now she wonders if her little sister’s penchant for dancing was one of the things lost in last year’s betrayal and heartbreak. They had never been the closest among the siblings, but even she could see the way that sadness had weighed her down. There was a stretch of time where her sister – so bright, so shining – had dulled; her smile never quite crept into her eyes, her laugh wasn’t filled with open joy and wild abandon, even her voice had seemed to shrink in weight and size. So of course, her young sister not dancing is not the end of the world or even the worst thing from the past year. But the sight of Lydia sitting, smiling softly at the dance floor but with her feet still and firmly planted on the ground fills her sadness all the same.
She walks over, then slides, twirls and stretches her hand out below her.
“Ready to tear up the dance floor, Lyds?” She says with a ridiculous little shoulder shrug.
Lydia laughs at her and shakes her head. “I don’t think so…although I’ll be more than willing to sit here and laugh at your tearing it up.”
She has a strange sense of deja vu, flashing back to a wedding three years ago, only the positions had been switched.
The song wound down and switched to a slow dance, with the DJ ordering all couples onto the dance floor to sway and cuddle. She sat down and scooted close to her sister.
“You’re lucky that the song changed, otherwise I would’ve just dragged you out there. Just like you always did to me.”
Her sister smiled up at her and then rested her head on Elizabeth’s shoulder.
“I always liked it when you danced.”
Lydia snorted. “I wasn’t very good at it.”
Elizabeth chuckled. “Well, you were never gonna be a candidate for America’s Got Talent.” She tucked a strand of Lydia’s hair behind her ear. “But you always had so much fun. And so did everyone else around you. I mean, you even got your stodgy older sister to dance a few times, as horrifying as that sight is.”
Lydia laughed, a real, bright laugh that looked like it startled her for a moment. “Oh my God, do you remember at the Gibbon’s wedding when you ran into that guy with the white tux and he spilled wine all over his suit?
Elizabeth chuckled. “Well, I mean, really. Who wears a white tux to a wedding? And he was rude to Mary. He definitely deserved it.”
Lydia looked up at her, then dropped her gaze back down to her twisting hands in her lap.
“You never told me how ridiculous I looked every time I danced.” She glanced up at Elizabeth, a dreary look in her eyes. “I always looked half crazed and out of control. And I’m pretty sure I would always accidentally end up hurting myself as I, like, gyrated carelessly across the dance floor.”
Lydia sighed, and smiled up at Elizabeth, though her eyes took on a faraway look. Elizabeth nuzzled her baby sister’s head with her eye, then smoothed her hair softly as she started to speak, softly, full of love.
“It wasn’t carelessness. Or wildness. It was enthusiasm. You were always brimming over with it. And it didn’t matter what anyone thought of you or how silly you might have looked – you were gonna go out there and have fun and anyone who didn’t get it was taking themselves too seriously.” She says, peering down at her sister. “I was always a little jealous of that, you know? I was always too self conscious to really enjoy myself , too worried about how gangly my legs were or if I was poking someone with my elbows.”
Lydia smiled. “Well, it’s a valid concern. You do have really pointy elbows.”
Elizabeth huffed and lightly kneaded Lydia in the ribs with her elbow. “C’mon, next terrible dance remix to some lame pop song and we’ll head out there. We’ll throw our hands around wildly and gyrate half a beat too late. I’ll attempt not to look like Elaine from Seinfeld, while you attempt not to get your shins kicked.” Lydia laughed quietly, then look towards the dance floor.
“It’s been a while since I danced. It’s a little…scary, I guess.” She glanced up at Elizabeth. “My…shins aren’t quite as strong as they used to be. And I’m a little more aware of how silly I look.”
Elizabeth smiled down at her and said, “That’s why your big sister is gonna be out there with you – protecting your soft shins and drawing all potential teasing to her own atrocious dance moves. And, you know, making you wheeze in laughter at my attempts to stay on beat.” She then nudged Lydia to look towards the dance floor. “And seriously? Look over there, those two in the green and yellow? They kind of look like they’re having seizures. And the ones by the booth, with their drinks in hand? I’m pretty sure those are not dance moves but aerobics steps. But none of them care.”
Lydia looked at her, then said wryly, “So you’re saying we should leave our comfortable chairs and go join the ranks of the people that you just openly mocked for their terrible dance moves?”
Elizabeth smiled. “No, I’m saying that the only thing sillier than bad dancing, is being the one sitting down, grumpily mocking bad dancers for the fun that they’re having.”
The slow song began to wind down and a drilling bass began to echo through the reception hall.
Elizabeth got up and extended her hand to her little sister once more.
“C’mon, let’s go make fools of ourselves.” She twirled herself and then took on a tone of voice that was uncannily similar to her younger sister’s. “It’ll be good for us! Loosen up the body, get the blood flowing!” She smiled brightly and wiggled her eyebrows at her sister.
Lydia threw her head back and laughed, then took Elizabeth’s hand and let herself be pulled up. She threw her hands up, did a small shoulder shake, then did a rather stilted moonwalk towards the dance floor.
“That dance floor better watch out. I’m back and better than ever!”
Elizabeth laughed and grabbed Lydia’s hand, and together they ran and slid over to dance floor, not caring who was looking or how silly they might’ve looked.
**Title taken from the TSwift song – “Holy Ground”